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hello i still having my exam yet.its difficult.ah i dont want to tell it.its too bad,disaster.im afraid if im not going to 9th grade D: tomorrow will be a test for the sister school,student exchange look-a-like.so we will going to singapore and we will study in that sister school.wish me luck for the test.

oh yeah yesterday-ehm on saturday actually i was chatting with firman.my friend.we were so boring and at last i tell him to ask me anything cause im so bored.i answer it and still bored hha.then he told me to ask him back.so i ask him the topic ive thinked for this two months,i've been hanging for more than two months.its still ok for me.but i knw something when i chat with him.at first we were talking about his relationship with resri.they more than friend but they're not in a relationship.so i asked him may he can give me some inspiration.and so i asked him 'do you like resri ; kamu suka sama resri?' and he replied 'like,but not love; suka tapi nggak sayang' and after he said that i realized something.im not in that relationship and i realized that like and love is different.i never realized it and always act like 'he'(this not firman of course) was mine and actually im not.i cant hanging like this forever.but why dont i try?its not wrong.i remember what rida's friend says and it rolling my stomach out 'selama janur belum melengkung dia masih milik umum' like that boy is stuff that you can borrow but cant own.im too selfish.i realized.why do i been so angry when he doesnt text me?yes i am selfish.i know he doesnt mind to make me angry.i trusted him.i dont have to be afraid.like firman said 'dont be afraid,if he is for you he will go nowhere' thanks for the inspiration.i promise i wont selfish anymore.i will try to understand you.

i trust you