stressed

"I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are " 

July.

haloooo apa kabar? hehehe lama ngga nge blog, ngga sempet-sempet. taun ajaran baru udah dimulai, punya adek kelas, udah jadi anak kelas 11 yang ngejar undangan, udah bulan Ramadhan, daaan Juli bentar lagi abis. Awal Juli sebenernya nggak ngapa2in, 6 Juli 2 orang yang saya ulangtaun! iyaa adek dan ndut wkwk. ntar saya upload deh foto2nya. terus pas masuk, seneng rasanya ngeliat adek-adek gen yang baru hehe :3 terus juga sibuk ngejer pelajaran soalnya otak udah off 2 minggu jadi pas dapet pelajaran yang lgsg dijelasin cuepet, kayak kepala disetrum listrik dipaksa bangun ._. terus ramadhan udah dataaang, bentar lagi lebaran, alhamdulilah blm ada yg bolong puasanya. selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa hehe. terus mau ngereview, mungkin udah telat banget soalnya mau ngepost gak sempet2. nih nih

yups! Maroon 5 new album : Overexposed. saya udah nunggu album ini lama pooool, penasaran gimana sih isinya, lagu2nya, katanya bakal beda. dan ternyataa, emang beneran beda. saya beli album ini di toko cd bbrp minggu yang lalu. awalnya temen saya udah bilang buat download aja tapi ngga afdol buat saya kalo ngga beli cdnya huahaha. pas saya dengerin well, bit disappointed, bukan maroon5 banget. beberapa kali saya dengerin, saya udah ngerasa bosen. kalo dibandingin sama album sebelumnya; Hands All Over, saya prefer yg itu. lagu2nya disini beda banget pokoknya. meskipun saya ngerasa bosen, lagu2 dari album ini tetep setia ngisi cd player di mobil :)) kalo mau lagu bagus hmm download aja yg judulnya : One More Night, Fortune Teller, Daylight, sama Lucky Strike. selera saya sih, paling bagus ya tetep One More Night. oiya, itu yang saya saranin diluar lagu Payphone sama Moves Like Jagger yang udah populer duluan.sama satu lagi, judulnya Wipe Your Eyes. Intronya agak aneh, cuman reff nya ya bagus sih hehehe.

aslinya saya juga mau review spiderman tp kayaknya semua udah nonton :)) yaudah segitu aja deeh. Cheers!

hm?

weheartit

I have no time for fear or people in my ear

Head down and running so fast

Try not to dwell on the past

I’m fighting through this pain

And things I cannot change

Running right into the flame

Rather than running away

- Maroon 5 - No Curtain Call

Sam Tsui - The One That Got Away

well, saya lebih suka versi sam tsui daripada punya katper, lebih unyu gimana gitu hahaha enjoy!

mocca-you

nobody has

noone can make my dreams come true

cause noone can compare to you yes its you

your love make my wishes come true

i need to know

i need to know that you'll be my home

i need to know that you will always be mine

the love that will guide my way

its you yes its you that i adore

its you who makes my life so comfort

its you yes its you that i adore

its you who makes my life so comfort

nobody has

noone can make my dreams come true

cause noone can compare to you yes its you

the love that will guide my way

oh no i think im in love with you

oh no i think im in love with you

oh no i think im in love with you

oh no..

im back :3

hey tubbies,im back hahaha.im still so so soo tired,i went home yesterday and today ive got an rsbi exam from Jakarta.it was suck i cant do number 30 until 40 -_- ooohmy my math my math D: hm it wasnt really nice in singapore.i always starving oh oh.gizi buruk deh disana.kita makannya kotakan.kalo gak gobes ya ayam.kayak nggak ada makanan lain apa.and almost everyday i went to 7eleven to buy slurpee or to fairprice buy choco mint.oh oh i cant stop eat that :3 our hotel was small -_- and near the pub.banyak psk disana,apalagi pas udah agak malem.hoo bajunya kayak nggak ada kain lagi apa -- and we were going to henderson secondary school for 5 days,campfire on fri-sat.it was very very fun.argh just let me tell you about where we go,another else,boring.trust me.kita baru pergi jalan jalan itu hari Sabtu,dan sabtu itu barulah kita ketemu piring makan uenak kenyang puas wes.muter2 jurong liat burung gak penting,ke science center,i've tried many experiments there,not all,they just give us one hour whatthe.. trus makan(i love this part) trus ke chinatown apa ke toko coklat dan toko barang mahal sialan itu dulu ya?the guide is crazy,we're just a teen we're not working && they bring us to an expensive store,they sell fuckin-bad-quality-tshirts-with-14-dollar-EACH,are you crazy?14 dolar buat kaos supertipis kayak gitu mahal tau.di chinatown bisa dapet 10$ 3 begituan.i dont buy much souvenirs,for what?im not giving anyone else except my mom,dad,sis,and my grandpa.gaaah im so happy can blogging again :D i miss you so so much.and you know what my friend in twitter exactly miss me HAHAHAHA

sorry guys i dont give you any souvenirs hahaha

hugs,

camilia metadea♥

im not blogging for (more than) one week D:

hello tubbies,i miss you so so much.at last i can write here again :) i really really want to blog but i dont have enough time haha.hey today is 14th may so tomorrow is 15th may,three months.hahaha.oh yeah i've changed my relationship status at facebook.everybody asked me for PJ*pajak jadian zz.its not important,dudes,yo dont know just shut up.today i'm not in my mood.she 's always looking for attention to him.uh jealous,yes.so what.who is she HAHAHA*evil laugh* actually i hate her smile i hate her i hate how she speak.she is totally disgusting.ah forget it i wanna tell you something 'more' important.i'm not blogging for hmm maybe more than one week.i'm gone to singapore with my friends,its not holiday.and there,i have to call or texting more expensive,roaming,its crazy.i'm a-texting-freak.&& no internet for one week!!NO TWEETING NO FACEBOOK-ING NO CHATTING NO BLOGGING.oooh i cant live without internet :( 

ohyeah ohyeah ive got a good song ._.

kerispatih-janji kita

Betapa dalamnya

Rasaku padamu

Mengungkap segala

Gundahmu untukku

Terpatri indah di jiwa

Mencoba susuri masa depan kita

Jalani cinta seutuhnya cinta

Berharap hiasi dengan asmara

Reff: 

Kasih dengarlah kini semua ada di janji kita

Biarkan tetap terjaga meski tak mudah tuk setia

Takkan pernah terpisah itu ada di janji kita

Kau satu dalam hidupku dan kugenggam satu cintamu

Satu cintamu kan kugenggam selamanya

Satu cintamu…

sorry tubbies i may meet you hmm on 24 or maybe 25 may*or more :( *

seeyalater,

camilia metadea♥

happy kartini's day!

afternoon haha.i wanna write with english in this post.cause when i see another blog they use English and im not.and if im using indonesian just Indonesian people can understand.cmon lets start :3

today is 21st April.whoa today is KARTINI DAY :D happy kartini day everybody and happy birthday for my dad :3 he's 42 now.many school celebrate Kartini's day by wearing traditional clothes such as kebaya but my school doesnt -_- we just wear uniform like usual,b-o-r-i-n-g.today is hmm lil bit fun.today i have my remidial test for physics,its suck.after i did the remidial i still got 70*its not far from 64,5 right? oh my god i'm bad at physics -_- but ive got good news.biology's exam is delayed :3 our material hasnt finished yet.so how can i do the test if its not finish?mrs.Khusni is lil bit crazy ._. our class hasnt done the blood circulatory yet but b and c already did the plant one.at English class Nindya,Fira,and Erin were singing.they're good singer.if im singing maybe the window will broken or my school will explode(?) i am a bad singer. nindya sing this in English class,dunno why i keep singing this song ._.:

more than words-extreme

Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two 

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

More than words 

kerispatih's

untuk pertama kali

aku temukan lagi sebuah cinta

di dalam aura  hadirmu

aku rasakan kelembutan hati

di mimpi indah kasihmu

kita bisa nikmati rasa ini

walau segalanya jelas terlarang

kita bisa saling menyayangi dan mencoba

tak peduli keadaan ini

reff:

dan untuk pertama kali

cintaku terbagi

dan ku ingin memilikinya

dan untuk pertama kali

ku sangkali janji

dan bahagia mencintanya

realize

I bruise you

You bruise me

We both bruise so easily

Too easily to let it show

I love you, and thats all I know

And all my plans

keep falling through

All my plans they

Depend on you

Depend on you

To help them grow

I love you

And thats all I know 

When the singer's gone

Let the song go on

It's a fine line between

The darkness and the dawn

They say in the darkest night

Theres a light beyond

And the ending always

Comes at last 

Endings always

Come too fast 

They come too fast

And they pass too slow

I love you

And thats all, its really all I know

Its all I know

Its all I know 

faded-smile,

camilia metadea♥

lisa loeb-stay :]

You say I only hear what I want to.

You say I talk so all the time so. 

And I thought what I felt was simple,

and I thought that I don't belong,

and now that I am leaving,

now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.

Yeah yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:

I don't listen hard,

don't pay attention to the distance that you're running

to anyone, anywhere, 

I don't understand if you really care,

I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no. 

So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,

and this woman was singing my song: 

lover's in love, and the other's run away,

lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay. 

Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was

dying since the day they were born.

Well, well, this is not that;

I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.

And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.

You try to tell me that I'm clever,

but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that I was naive,

and I thought that I was strong.

I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."

Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.

Yeah, I miss you.

You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."

You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just

scared to lose.

And you say, "Stay." 

And you say I only hear what I want to.